ilona the pest

insecurity + narcissism = awesome!

Saturday, January 06, 2007


i'm hosting a tiny dinner party tomorrow night for a few people i am friendly with at work. (including one of my oldest friends who also happens to work there.) they seem fun and nice, and i really think we could be friends, so i hope it goes well. i'm feeling nervous. :( i feel shy about interacting with people i don't know very well, especially with the added pressure of hosting and feeling responsible for the success of the evening.

also i have to clean my whole apartment. i really hate cleaning. but that's also the secret benefit of having people over every now and then (especially people i don't know very well): it forces me to clean everything and make it look presentable. my pride outweighs my laziness.


  • At 2:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Lemme get this straight. You're having a bunch of friends over. You're having a bunch of friends over to have a nice time.

    Yet, you're nervous. You're nervous about the "success" of the evening.

    You're the young lady who can't eat alone in a restaurant, aren't you?

  • At 6:00 AM, Blogger ilona said…

    hmph. well anyway, it went smashingly. everyone had a lovely time.

  • At 8:57 AM, Blogger ilona said…

    aw, thanks, stace! :)

    i might come back someday. it depends on a variety of factors, like my job situation, my s.o.'s job situation, etc. i'm really falling in love with new york, but the bay area is awesome too, so that factor is a toss-up.

  • At 7:52 PM, Blogger ilona said…

    oh. :(

    i do visit on occasion, but usually just spend the whole time making out with the BF. :)

  • At 8:33 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    you might P.O. the S.O. if he finds out that you've been making out B.F. - the ac

  • At 2:51 PM, Blogger wt said…

    I wish I could do some Tony Robbins shock therapy on you. You bum me out with your insecurities about how people may not like you. Everyone loves you dude. Remember all your Boalt friends? And look at how many stalkers you have reading this blog.


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